Well, this is clearly my very last resort.
To reveal those hidden emotions of mine.
I do have a personal, open blog.
But it's not very convenient to put them up there.
So I guess this will work.
Gotta keep myself anonymous I guess.

I'm kinda sick of the nonsense life is throwing at me right now.
Mainly speaking, all those friendship problems.
I do not understand why.
I feel like I was cursed with some 'friendship problems' spell.
Why can't I have the blessing of everlasting friendships? )':
One of my best friend, let's call her 'S'.
She's the sort of very very emotional person,
who would get all teared up at the slightest nonsense. (to me)
She would act like I offended her when I did not.
For example, ignoring me and being cold to me.
Actually, that I understand.
Who the hell would wanna talk when they're all fed up and shit?
But the thing I really don't get it is that,
whenever she is shutting herself up and when others approached her to ask her what happened,
she would reply them.
But whenever I ask her what happened,
she would just shake her head with the moodless expression and continue ignoring me.
It's not only for once, it has ALWAYS been like this.
Why must she do that to me?
She has no idea how much that hurts.
It may sound silly to you.
But honestly, I bet your best friend doesn't do that to you.
I'm sick of being made use of.
Everytime I get so sick of the stupid attitude she's giving me,
I really feel like throwing a temper and ignore everybody around me.
But no, I don't do that.
Cause I know it's terribly unfair for the innocent people around me.
But her? She don't even think for others like me.
Correction, only me.
Everytime before CCA, I would be praying silently for her not to have any moodswings.
Can you see the trauma I get from her each time she gets them?

Aren't true/best friends supposed to share their troubles with one another?
Aren't true/best friends not supposed to ignore one another whenever they feel like it?
Aren't true/best friends not supposed to make use of one another?

One last thing :

Aren't true/best friends supposed to treasure one another.

S doesn't seem to fit into any criteria of mine.
Unless you're telling me she's not one..

)':